“All this pain and all this grace is gonna be worth it some day. Oh, change my mind. Change my mind.” (Kirby Kaple)

Tell me it’s worth it. Tell me the hanging on is worth it. Is it?

Because if it’s not, let me go. Let me go. Just let me…

Right now it’s not for me. Nothing is for me. I don’t do it for me. It’s for you, and you, and you, and… Will it be for me one day? Tell me it will.

Because if it’s not, let me go.

See me. See the pain. Look into my eyes and see it. I’m hanging on, but just barely. I’m hanging on, but it hurts. I’m hanging on but I don’t want to. I’m hanging on for you. Why are you hanging on? For you? For me? Will it be worth it? Is it worth it?

Because if not, let me go.

Change my mind! Change my mind. Please. I don’t really want this, but my mind – it thinks I do. It thinks this is it. This will make it all ok. Change my mind. Tell me it’s worth it. Tell me I won’t get to the end of this and wish I hadn’t. Change my mind.

Can you tell me? Can you change my mind? You can’t. I know you want to. I see it. The desperation. But you don’t have the guarantee. And neither do I.

So how do I change my mind? How? And why? Will it be worth it?

Because if not, let me go.

But first…

Change my mind.