Knowing God


The last year has been an arduous climb toward the top of some proverbial mountain.  The valleys have been deep and dark, but they are becoming fewer and farther between.  I’ve not reached the top of the peak, and honestly, I no longer want to.  What I understand now is that it’s never been about reaching the top, it’s been about the climb.

Did I just quote Miley Cyrus?😳

It’s the journey that teaches.  It’s the journey that heals.  But only if you allow it.

If I hadn’t let go and allowed God to break me, He never would have had the chance to put me back together.

Many years ago, I gave my life to Jesus.  I’ve followed Him.  I’ve prayed to Him.  I’ve thanked Him, praised Him, worshipped Him, and I’ve even relied on Him some.

But not like this.

This has been different.  This has been life changing.  This has been beautiful.  This has been more powerful than anything I’ve known.  This has been God invading my mind, body, and spirit.

He is everything to me.  I don’t get up in the morning without Him.  I don’t go to bed at night without Him.  And I certainly don’t go through the awake part of my day without Him!  He sustains me.

He brings peace.

This morning, as I sit by the pool and soak in the beauty of His creation, I’m filled with peace.

Josh leaves tomorrow for seven month of off-station training.  He won’t be deployed or in another part of the world, but he will, nonetheless, be absent in our everyday lives.  That leaves me with a huge burden to bear.  He has big shoes to fill around here.  But I’m at peace.

He will sustain me.

He will give me what I need for each day.  For today, He has given me peace in knowing that, though my husband will not be here, I will not be alone.  He will provide what I need.

I’ve learned so much on this climb already, but I know God isn’t finished with me yet.  In many ways, I’m not the same person I was a year ago.  God has smoothed some rough edges.  He still has work to do in me, though.

I’m ready.  I’m ready to let Him mold me.  I’m ready to be exactly who He wants me to be.  I’m ready to continue the climb.

About Beautifully Polarized

Life is ever changing. God is working in me more everyday. He has blessed me with a husband who is my best friend in every aspect of life, and three children who teach me about life and love everyday. He has blessed me further with friends who help me get through the rough days, and laugh with me on the good days. And, I believe He gave me the best mom a girl could ask for. He has also given me trials so that I can grow into the person He intended me to be. Walking with Him makes life in this world bearable.

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