I decided this morning that I wanted to get some new music to listen to while I baked. I pulled up the iTunes store with no clear idea of what I was really looking for. Ultimately, I chose Kari Jobe’s Majestic album. I only know a couple of songs on it, but I like her, so I figured it was a good choice. After just a few songs, I knew why I had chosen it. It seemed God had a message for me inside.
Always Enough by Kari Jobe
I lift my hands to the highest of all
As I draw near
Surrender my life to Your promise, oh God
There is no other
I will find my life in You
You’re always enough
Let the fullness of Your love
Be all I need
All I need
Consume me, come like a fire, oh God
Reign in me
For You alone will satisfy
There is no other
If I have You, I have everything
But without You, I have nothing
Lately, I’ve been learning to depend more and more on God, and less on people. I love my friends and family, and I certainly want to have deep, meaningful relationships with them, but I find that I can easily put too much emphasis on their actions or opinions. It isn’t healthy.
Today began as one of those days where I replayed something over and over in my mind trying to figure it out – trying to understand what motivates people’s words and actions. The more I thought about it, the worse I felt. Truth is, it doesn’t matter what someone else thinks of me, so I don’t need to spend anymore time trying to figure it out!
What matters is that God loves me. God thinks highly of me. He cares for me, and protects me. He is the only one I need to please. If He is pleased with me, then nothing else matters. He is enough. He is Always Enough.
I went to see my counselor today. If I haven’t mentioned it before, I love her! She gave me great perspective on a few things, and she offered several nuggets of wisdom. After leaving her office, I felt much better about things. I know I have a long road ahead of me, and that overcoming the issues that keep causing me so much pain will not be easy, but I know what I have to do.
In the meantime, I’m ever thankful for those of you who faithfully pray for me and lift me up every time I ask. I know I ask often these days. Know that I pray for you just as often as I ask for you to pray for me. Though sometimes I am full of doubt about this stage of my life, deep down I know that I am blessed beyond measure with the people God has placed in my life. So many times you have been like Jesus to me, and I can never thank you enough.